a flower that'll never bloom

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"I push away the people I want the most in my life, and I tell myself that it's because I need to learn to live without attachments.
But deep inside, all I want, is for someone to resist my efforts at pushing them away
and tell me I am worth holding on to,
even when I'm acting like a complete idiot."

"She spent a life
building walls
then sat there in her "lonely"
wondering
why
nothing grew."
- Atticus
My toxic trait?
I shut down and I push people away. Even when it's a time when I need someone the most.
And as much as I don't want to, for some reason, I do it anyway.
I isolate myself and suffer in silence because I feel that's what I have to do and
I don't deserve help."
- Twitter account @a_alyssam_arie

"I push people away because I'm afraid I'm going to lose them.
It's like a twisted way of protecting myself."
"Are you only going to love me until
you realize how hard loving me actually is?"

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