The cream to my tea

 She had taken off both her shoes, then locked the door and checking it twice. She's always careful, a bit too much actually. She's paying attention to her surroundings, people walking past her, a cat walking gracefully but also carelessly, cars and bikes riding somewhere. She sees everything. She takes the same road everyday, she's that simple. Sometimes it would rain, but she would refuse to use an umbrella. She enjoys the sound of the rain, and the feeling of it on her skin. She's neat, but also messy. She's very smart, but also very lazy. Her favorite piece is Für Elise. She would spend about 15 minutes in the shower. She's not a sweet tooth kind of person, nor she likes the sour taste. She would stay up all night playing with her phone, either for some games or read fiction. She would end up oversleeping and rushing to go to work without breakfast. She almost never skips work, too much of a coward to do that. All she cared about were her loved ones; family ...

"I push away the people I want the most in my life, and I tell myself that it's because I need to learn to live without attachments. But deep inside, all I want, is for someone to resist my efforts at pushing them away and tell me I am worth holding on to, even when I'm acting like a complete idiot." "She spent a life building walls then sat there in her "lonely" wondering why nothing grew." - Atticus My toxic trait? I shut down and I push people away. Even when it's a time when I need someone the most. And as much as I don't want to, for some reason, I do it anyway. I isolate myself and suffer in silence because I feel that's what I have to do and I don't deserve help." - Twitter account @a_alyssam_arie "I push people away because I'm afraid I'm going to lose them. It's like a twisted way of protecting myself." "Are you only going to love me until you realize how hard loving me actually...